Have
you ever found yourself putting things off and waiting for that perfect moment?
To afraid to start something
because you might mess it up or putting off buying something you need because
the conditions are not right or the elasticity of your budget stretch is
sensitive with the stretch of having to buy things of necessity rather than
meeting a once off blessing that you truly deserve.
Well, you are not alone in that
because we all go through some kind of mental shifting to come up with the
perfect excuse of why we should have it and then last minute changes our minds
leaving us back at the starting point.
The weather outside is overcast
with a constant drizzle that leaves you wishing a warm bath, a good meal and a
curl up on the lounge chair with a good movie.
Its been raining since yesterday
and I have been praying every time I look out my window that God would allow it
to rain longer and harder to fill up our dams. We are currently facing a water
shortage in KZN and the local newspaper just announced water cut due for next
week.
I don’t
think that any of us are looking forward to it.
The rain does more for me than that concerned thought I just typed into
these pages. It’s
the fact that I have always loved the rain. It’s fresh and leaves a distinct
smell of nature that is caressing to my senses.
Outside the place from where I am
writing this chapter is the perfect view for me as a writer. The forestry hill
has a thin transparent blanket of mist resting on the trees. In this part of the
region in Pietermaritzburg and up into the Hilton area you will always find a
blanket of mist over the trees. The air is fresh, highly recommended for people
who cannot live in the CBD because of air pollution from some of the factories
and of course vehicle emissions. Outside is my perfect view for writing. The area
just needs a massive excavation of the building below and a slight elevation of
eight feet with an enclosed veranda that has a white rug with fur that is soft
to your barefoot and my writing table set before the veranda view with the
right temperature because of the fireplace. This is my perfect setting with the
basics of the right wall color and fire place in the far end of the room to my
right giving a silent noise as each log burns with a click and a crack as
oxygen escapes the wood.
This is my moment. I could put
off writing until I get it or I could continue writing regardless until that
perfect does come without me having to look for it. Over the years I have had
to continue on despite the perfect conditions simply because I have learnt by
observing people and putting off things in my own life that nothing really
happens. We are all left with a desire but nothing to show for it.
My life has taken a different
turn for most people, but I, just cannot afford to sit around for perfect
conditions. I have seen too many delays and setbacks and have learnt earlier on
in my life that they were really my fault. Living cautiously does not guarantee
you an adventure or achievement. I have read and seen the great who have put
their time in and today live the life and the conditions that they hoped one
day that they would achieve. If your life is worth living it is worth taking a
risk now and again for the things you believe are right for you.
