I Don't Feel Like It

I did not feel like it.

Really, that was how I felt getting up this morning.

I don't feel like it this morning

I have these rituals that I have been doing for x amount of years and it still gets to me. I had a great evening and my body didn’t feel all achy, just 100% but my mind has this pattern that I have been trying to break all my life, but for the few minutes of each day I have got to decide.

Kick mind games out the door and decide. This is how it’s going to be and this what I’m doing. I’m going to do my ritual of exercise this morning whether I feel like it or not. I’m going to do that press-ups and cardio’s whether my mind is up to it or not. I’m doing this. 1234 and on.

1234 and on

I was driving through morning traffic and thinking of all the daily motivation one needs to get by. All the synching to be in peak state to go out and get the prize each day.

I couldn’t help but think about the different motorist who were traveling along this route convoy as though some subconscious program gave the order automatically in all of us.

I wondered how many have rituals that steer them towards a positive outcome each day or are they just on automatic. Rituals are daily little positives or negatives that get us towards a state.

I don’t feel like it could be the mantra that they are repeating under their breath. I don’t feel like going to work. I don’t like that guy’s hairstyle in that car. Not that I thought that. I just don’t feel like it.

What if we continue in this state for the next say? Week or two
What would be our outcome?
You guessed it or did you guess right or did you guess wrong?

Whatever, the outcome. It’s going to be an outcome. It’s going to be everything that they feel at that moment of thinking like that but! Wait for it, 100 times worse or good depending on their reaction to that statement.

I don’t feel like it.
Well, life certainly has a way of painting us a picture each day. some days we get up feeling like we are going to take on the world and others, like my morning. 
Do I? Do I really have to do this but then I think of my body, my age and the changes I’m going through and the task I must commit to everyday and of course to where I’m going in life and then I remember.

Not at this moment or that moment. I remember sitting on a plane for almost 9hours between stop overs. I remember the 21hour bus rides into an African country and I remember the speaking engagements and the work I do almost back to back and then I remember. I need to get rid of this midsection that keeps pushing up against my ribs while sitting for long hours on journeys.

I remember how uncomfortable I was and the promise I made to live up to my craft and its expectations of me.
Now, yours would not be so dramatic, but can be less strenuous. 
Is it right to use the word strenuous to describe your work or craft? 
I don’t know but it sounds good while typing, at least in my mind. 

I think, no matter the craft or the job we all have these bodies that are ageing without our consent and if they doing that without our consent then we need to do something with consent.

I consent to doing it anyway whether I feel like it or not.

I don’t feel like it! I consent to doing it and getting the feelings later.

Do it. Yep, just do it.
I don’t feel like it makes me do it.

Be blessed and don’t forget to share. 
Author: Denzil Pailman